My Saturday mornings are very gentle and follow a regular pattern which includes a visit to the Farmer’s Market at the Oval.

Last Saturday began differently however as I’d come to the end of my four week pill dispenser. To fill it for the next four weeks takes time and concentration. Of one lot I must take 150mg one day and 175mg the next. As the pills come in 100s, 50s and 25s I need to get it right. Then there are three other lots of pills.

 Some years ago I asked a doctor what the side affects of some of these might be. He replied, slightly tersely, “Mr Acland, as I have explained to you, these pills are giving your body what your body has stopped producing naturally. The side affects are that you will feel wonderful!” That shut me up.

On Saturday I noticed that while all these pills are individually in foil sheets some of the foil sheets are now in foil envelopes which themselves are in cardboard boxes along with a page of printed instructions. When all was done the pile of packaging to throw away was considerable. I wonder how future generations will regard this waste? I remember when pills came in reusable bottles.

That done I set off to the market. Coming towards me on the pavement was a young woman riding her bicycle. She had a dog on a lead running alongside. She was talking on her telephone and applying lip salve. She managed to smile and ride past me without a wobble. I am usually irritated when people ride bicycles on the pavement but this time I couldn’t but admire her multi-tasking.

At the market there were unusually long queues. The weather was good. At my favourite vegetable stall when I was next but one to the front of the queue a rather bouncy young man queue jumped and plonked his bag on the table. The man in front of me, surprised and not altogether pleased, said, to no one in particular, “Who does he think he is? Boris Johnson?”

All this and it was only 10.30 on a Saturday morning.

P.S. Today, Wednesday, I was able to say, “Eid Mubarak” (Happy Eid) to three Muslims who were each clearly as delighted to be greeted for their festival as I had been on Easter Day for mine.

Holy week and Easter are done for another year. A lot of religion – probably too much, and a lot of depth – probably not enough.

On Saturday, someone was meant to be coming between 1.00pm and 6.00pm to fix my CCTV. At two I had a phone call to say that the engineer had called in sick and so wouldn’t be coming and that I must make another appointment.

I commented that over the last two months I had had three appointments cancelled and rescheduled because of sickness and two had been for a Saturday and one for a Monday morning. They were not all the same company.

Sometimes, I said, I found this weekend ‘sickness’, difficult to believe. He replied “What you believe is your choice.” I thanked him for letting me know and thought his response was not only true, but also timely.

Walking to St Agnes on Easter Day, along Kennington Park Road and through the Park I passed a number of people. I was wearing a clerical colour as I usually do if I’m assisting. Some spotted me coming from a distance, and as they drew near, looked towards the other side of the road to avoid any chance of eye contact, I’ve noticed this before.

Some, usually of ethnicities other than mine, did catch my eye and smiled or said good morning.

One said, “Happy Easter.” She was a Muslim.

I spent much  of Monday and Tuesday on S dec. This was not the Sun deck of a cruise ship but the Same Day Emergency Care unit at St Thomas’s Hospital.  I think it’s part of A&E,  Accident and Emergency.

Chest pains on Friday morning, for which my GP had prescribed antibiotics, were still troubling me on Monday morning so I was referred and off I went.

There was a long queue out of the hospital, down the path towards the street under a sort of tent. It took about two hours to get to the front of the queue. A doctor and a volunteer came along the queue; the volunteer reassuring, the doctor assessing and pulling out of the queue those who needed immediate attention.

On arrival I was assessed at Triage. From then on all was efficient and straightforward. I had an electrocardiograph done by a friendly Sicilian who didn’t really like London and could not understand why any sane person would live here rather than New Zealand! 

Then I was sent to SDEC for all the usual things; blood pressure, oxygen levels, pulse and temperature. Lots of blood was taken by a charming Brazilian who put up with everything I said about hating needles. I asked her not to say, “It’s only a scratch,” and she didn’t. I have a very low pain threshold! In due course chest X-rays were taken and another ECG.

The doctors asked me detailed questions to which I knew some of the answers. I have some memory. Thankfully they had access to all my medical records which were probably more accurate. I was allowed to go home at about 7 in the evening.

When I went back on Tuesday morning there was a CT scan. There was a long time waiting for results. Sometimes I sat on the chair in my cubical. Sometimes I lay on the examination bed. I was impatient with the waiting. The staff were very patient with me. I chose to have the curtain of my cubicle pulled back so I could watch the action.

Doctors kept a check on me and if I had a question someone came and answered it. I was offered food and drink. I don’t know whether the unit was particularly busy or not. All the cubicles seemed occupied. The staff spent a lot of time at computers and I’m sure they were not playing computer games.

Over those two days I saw people of such varying ages, ethnicities, educations, abilities, statuses, incomes, religions, political views and beliefs working together with good humour, and efficiency. They were a team working together as a team for their patients’ well-being. 

Then as now it strikes me that when we humans have a shared goal, perhaps especially if the focus is outside ourselves, it is amazing how well we can get on and how much we can accomplish together. 

I don’t know why it took time in SDEC to show me this as  I see it every time a team plays or an orchestra performs or, for that matter, every Sunday when people gather at St Agnes Kennington Park to worship God.

P.S. All the results came back negative which was really positive. It looks as though the GP was right from the beginning. And, thanks to that referral and SDEC, I also had a very positive experience.

‘Leave while the party’s going well,’ was advice I was given when I first began going to parties. I didn’t but it was sound advice. 

I have also discovered that, whatever the party  while the food, drink, host and setting are each important, the people make a party.

Over thirty years ago my elder daughter when asked by a bemused older friend, ‘What is Simon’s attraction to Thailand?’ replied, ‘I think it’s the people.” And she was right.

At breakfast at my hotel in Bangkok a couple asked if they could move from their table and join me at mine. Of course I said yes. It turned out this was their first visit to Thailand and they realised from my relationship with the staff that I was a regular. They wanted to know what they should do during their time there.

I asked how long they had been in Thailand and what they’d done so far. Two days and two tourist excursions. What was their impression I wondered. “The people are so lovely, and polite, and they smile!” They told me, enthusiastically. I agreed.

My last evening in Bangkok I had nothing planned. Then a friend from Berlin suggested a  Michelin starred restaurant for dinner, Aksorn in Chaeron Khrung Road. He knew the chef. It looked good, not far from where I was staying and understandably expensive. I thought, ‘what the heck’ and went for it. The food was superb and so was the setting – an outdoor terrace on a warm evening.

The chef joined me. He was Australian and had lived in Thailand for forty years. Within minutes we were talking about things trivial and important as if we’d known each other for years. We ‘clicked’. Thanks to him and so many others I left the party that is Thailand while it was at its best. 

Going home from a party is often boring. I never like leaving Thailand especially when it is warm there and cold here . My journey back to London was not great. Emirates was ok but various things didn’t  work. The staff were lovely.

And, as it is after all parties, it’s wonderful to be home.

My paternal grandmother, born in England in 1871, collected unusual epitaphs. One I remember was of a certain ‘Lady Jane’. It listed her virtues, of which there were many, and concluded, ‘She also painted in water colour For of such is the Kingdom of Heaven’. I’m afraid my water colours are not of a standard to get me in.

A much more poignant epitaph on the gravestone of a child’s grave, read, ‘If so soon I was to be done for I wonder what I was begun for.’

The sister of a young man whom I met when last in Sri Lanka two years ago, and with whom I have remained in touch by WhatsApp, has sent me a message. She used his phone and told me that he’d died of an asthma attack. He was twenty one. There was a photo with the message. It was of his body dressed in a black suit and with white gloves laid out for the funeral ceremonies. He looked serene. I had never seen him not wearing a covid mask.

‘If so soon…..’ indeed; Or as Donne said ‘Every man’s death diminisheth me’

It seems to me that unless we are prepared to see ourselves as only fully human in community, that is in relation to each other, we’ve missed out on what it is to be human at all.

In this context community is not those we choose as community – our friends – or even the community that is family who we don’t choose. It is anyone and everyone we happen to encounter along the way.

That encounter may help us to be more human or, if it doesn’t touch us, we are truly profoundly diminished. Lives, however short, are never a waste unless they are untouched by love and we are untouched by them. When untouched by them it’s our lives not theirs that are the lesser for it.

And through this I think I’ve become more aware than ever that death, even untimely death, is never a waste or failure. It is as natural, part of nature, as is birth. It is what happens. 

My continuing assertion is, “It’s not what happens to us in life that matters, it’s what we choose to do with what happens to us.” That includes allowing sadness to deepen our own realities and understanding, to become more fully human.